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In his book Dreams and Dreaming Norman MacKenzie says that
doctors and therapists who supervised LSD sessions noted the conflict
between the two reactions of defence or surrender, and this conflict
may be the source of a severe anxiety. It is sometimes resolved by a
collapse of the ego defences, and the subject then feels a terrible
sense of disintegration. This is usually expressed as a distortion of
the body image (the physical awareness of self), so that the patient
feels that his flesh is falling away from his bones, that time and
space have disintegrated, that he is nothing but a sound or a colour
or an emotion. This is called depersonalisation, and it
may seem to the patient that he has gone completely mad or even died.
Somewhere within the total personality, however, there appears to be
a continuing integrative force; though an individual may be
overwhelmed by the LSD experience, some part of his mind still seems
to observe, evaluate, comment, and even attempt to integrate this
otherwise hidden material with the knowledge of conscious life. This
may disappear for brief periods, when the fear of insanity or death
supervenes, but for most of the time it is clearly at work. No one
knows what type of thinking this may be. It appears to be
different both from reality thinking and autistic
thinking, from the patterns of conscious thought and the imagery
of fantasy a kind of bridge between two types of mental process.
Lawrence Lessing, in a Fortune article on recent sleep
research, has written: At the same time recent evidence shows
that there may well be a second, lower level of dreaming extending
down even into deep sleep, consisting largely of abstract thoughts or
isolated symbols, much harder to recall than the generally vivid,
active imagery of rapid-eye-movement dreaming.
Jung, Hadfield and several other dream researchers believe the dream
process is linked with homeostasis or self-regulation the sort
of self-regulation indicated in the observations of MacKenzie. This
means that the process underlying dream production helps keep
psychological balance, just as homeostasis keeps body functions
balanced by producing perspiration when hot, shivering when cold, and
the almost miraculous minutiae of internal changes. Despite
self-regulation or homeostasis being an obvious and fundamental
process in the body, in nature and the cosmos as a whole, it still
appears difficult for many people investigating the mind to accept a
similar function psychologically. See the books Man and His
Symbols, Jung - Dreams and Nightmares, Hadfield - Mind
and Movement, Liberating The Body; Crisp.
Put bluntly, dreams are said to compensate for conscious attitudes
and personality traits. So the coldly intellectual man would have
dreams expressive of feelings and the irrational as part of a
compensatory process. The ascetic might dream of sensuous pleasures,
and the lonely unloved child dream of affection and comfort. But this
is only the most basic aspect of compensation and is demonstrated in
the example below.
Example: In his book Psychology in Service Of The Soul,
Leslie Weatherhead tells the story of a little girl who while on a
visit to a zoo was given a coin to get a small chocolate bar from a
vending machine. She eagerly asked for more coins to obtain all the
bars in the machine. The mother refused. The next morning the girl
said she dreamt her mother had come into her bedroom and thrown a
lot of chocolate bars under her bed.
Jungs view of compensation was far more inclusive however. He
quotes, as an example the dream of an elderly general he met while
sitting opposite him on a train journey. The general told Jung that he
had dreamt he was on parade with younger officers while being
inspected by the commander in chief. On reaching the general the
commander asked him to define beauty. This surprised the general as he
expected to be asked technical questions regarding his service. He was
embarrassed and could not give a clear answer. The commander in chief
then asked a young major the same question and received a clearer
answer. The general experienced feelings of failure and his grief woke
him. Jungs questioning led the general to realise that the young
major who successfully answered the query about beauty actually looked
just like himself when he was that age and a major. Further
questioning led to the information that at that age the general had
been interested in art, but the pressure of work and the rigidity of
the military life had eroded the interest. Jung goes on to suggest
that the dream in his late life was helping to compensate for the one
sided development necessitated by his army career. The dream in fact
reminded the general of this neglected side of himself.
This concept of wholeness, linked with the Self, which such
compensatory dreams connect with is best seen in the collection of
many years dreams by an individual undertaking their own personal
journey to self acceptance and integration. Through an overview of
dreams gained in this way, the two aspects of compensation become much
more clearly drawn. The dream work, aimed at meeting the neglected or
hurt parts of oneself, opens the way to more pronounced compensation.
A man who was investigating a feeling of lack in regard to his
marriage, gives the following account.
Example: As I was exploring my feeling I suddenly began to change
direction and realised that from the very earliest period of my life
I had certain filters in place that influenced incoming sensory
information. This had come about because I noticed how critical I
was of our next-door - upstairs - neighbours, and in examining it
saw that I had filters to search all information for danger. This
burst open in intense feelings and awareness of being a weak
chick. A powerful internal struggle and something like an oh
God no! feeling accompanied it. I then experienced what it was
like to be a premature baby and so weak. Being born two months
prematurely had thrown my infant self into a high state of anxious
survival where everything was felt as a potential danger. So my
filters were examining everything for danger. Everything that moved
or made a noise was a potential threat to my existence.
At first with laughter, then with pain I saw that this had made me
suspicious of my own mother. I had not fitted the norm
in terms of size, strength or behaviour, so not only had I lived
with a danger alert process going all the time, but also
with the realisation I was not up to scratch. Instead of the full
term child who is more adjusted to the environment I had emerged
still in a condition adjusted to the womb. My psychological state
was also, I felt, quite different, a sort of experience of the death
world, the world before birth and after death.
Society, I felt, has a sort of labelling or measuring system. It
has emerged out of biological criteria of survival and fitness, and
is largely unconscious. People havent even acknowledged they
are acting under such drives. My genes are best, and everybody
elses are abnormal. But only the best of mine are going to get
through. Out of this I sensed that mothers who have children
who are not the best suffer a great internal struggle
about their child. Part of them cries out, That is no child of
mine!
So the people who are not seen as fit are not given
social rewards, starting with such rewards as recognition and warmth
from ones own parents, and escalating from there into recognition
and rewards from social groups and organisations. I personally felt
as if I were not seen as fit for several reasons. My premature birth
led me to be slightly less robust, and also my mixed cultural
background during a time of war made me less fit. I didnt have
the right label attached. Christy D.
As can be seen, Christy feels himself much less capable and accepted
by his mother than someone who has had a normal birth. He feels his
premature birth left him always paces behind those born full term. He
sums this up by saying:
Example: Due to constantly searching for something I had lost too
soon - the security of my mothers womb - due to feeling I
never bonded with my mother, I had felt agonised most of my life
that I couldnt be an ordinary husband emotionally and
sexually. I pushed and pushed to see if I could grow to this
ordinariness and finally felt that I had arrived, only to find that
I was too late. Not only had my wife entered the menopause and lost
interest in a sexual relationship, but also my children had grown up
and I had lost the huge satisfaction of being with them as
youngsters. So here I am in my late fifties without a sexual
relationship and without the loving contact of youngsters.
The gaps in Christys life are obvious, and the urge or need to
compensate is also plain to see. In fact Christy has an experience
that he describes as follows:
Example: I realised that because I had always felt inadequate in a
certain degree, I had used religion as a means of compensation.
Suddenly I saw the need for hero figures to use for compensatory
purposes for individuals and groups. The person may not be able to
live out some aspect of their life. They may not get a sexual
partner; they may not get recognition in their work; perhaps people
treat them as of no account. For some people an actual physical
disability stops them from living out their life fully. The hero/ine
figure is then used as an image that has several functions.
For instance nuns in a convent will not live out their ability to
get married or have a child. The figure of Christ is used as a
compensatory symbol for this in that they marry Christ and their
passion is through meditation on his being. In this way people use a
hero/ine figure to compensate for what is missing in their own life.
They can live their unlived soul through the passion of Christ for
instance.
The figure such as Christ represents our own wholeness and
complete potential. To compensate for our own unlived areas we look
to this figure and have a taste of what we are not expressing
outwardly through identifying with the hero/ine. Meditations on the
figure might produce great feelings of love, pain, wonder, and
recognition - in fact whatever is missing in everyday relationships.
The Christian festivals appear to be a way of living out via the
image of Christ the passions of life that we might not meet in our
everyday life. The birth, the struggle, the love, the death, can all
be partaken of. We can share the passionate experience of living in
this way, even though in our own actual life we might not be able to
live such a passionate and eventful existence. And I suppose
television does this for many people today.
At first I had a strong feeling this sort of compensation was used
by people who are inadequate in some way, a path for the weak, and a
path that I had taken myself. This suggested by inference that I was
less capable of living a full life than most. I had a sneering
feeling about how people use this as a crutch, but then realised I
was judging once more. I need a kick in the arse. Ive
got an ability to see, but I put all these judgements on things.
As I looked at the situation more fully though I saw that in fact
nobody lives a complete life. No one is completely whole, expressing
every aspect of their potential. So in fact we all relate in some
way to the Christ or other such figures who represents, or in some
way ARE the total potential of human existence; a mighty example of
what human life can achieve.
Now I came face to face with Christ. I felt knocked over
emotionally by it. It was an experience of meeting the most amazing
creature or being one could imagine. I stood in front of a god,
something that totally transcended human existence. Gods are often
depicted as having some great power of destruction or creativity.
They might be like a human being magnified many times, with loves
and hates, huge powers, throwing lightning bolts and so on. My
experience didnt show Christ as anything like this. The
transcendence was in the manner of Christs consciousness. Here
was a being with no real power in a worldly sense. This being hadnt
created the world and couldnt influence world history through
power.
The consciousness, the being of Christ, existed by a form of love
so magnificent I could barely look upon it. If love is the right
word, this love penetrated every living thing and absorbed their
most intimate life experience. The Christ took in every aspect of
existence without any judgement whatsoever. This was its life and
sustenance. So one could say this wondrous creature was a sort of
parasite living off the energy of life forms. But this is only a
part of what I experienced. Through total acceptance it took in all.
It took every tiny memory of each individual. But in return, if we
can share its immense passion it offers us its own life that
compared with our own is eternal.
I experienced that not only does one inherit the gift of eternal
life through identification with Christ, but also we share the
awareness of all life forms. Through this we participate in the life
and passion of all beings present and past. As I met this I was on
my knees as it were because I couldnt help loving this
wondrous being. I couldnt help feeling my own smallness. I
wanted to lose myself in this being and be washed through by its
radiance and hugeness. To be in its presence was the most amazing
thing. If you can imagine standing before a cosmic being that had
arrived from some other galaxy, and was millions of years old,
perhaps ageless, had no physical form except our own teeming lives,
radiated love so much that you were engulfed in it, and simply by
being in its presence shared its magnificent awareness, this might
give some idea. Christy D.
Christy acknowledges his own need for compensation due to feelings
of inadequacy. But he goes beyond this to see that each of us are in
some measure incomplete and compensation in its largest sense is about
finding awareness of the wholeness underlying our own life.
The description of compensation above is an example of something
functional. To be able to survive crushing life experience is a real
achievement, not an imagined one, and is therefore functional. Using
an image to evoke hope and motivation doesnt make it less of an
achievement. The process of compensation also links with patterns of
love and strength actually lived by others. They are then patterns
remaining in the collective experience of humanity and can be
accessed. When we touch these powerful racial memories we may clothe
them in the image of our cultural hero or saviour.
To be clear about this, the power that is found is a release of our
own potential emerging from our core self. So in this sense the
compenstaory image is a graphic presentation of our own innate
potential. This emerges from our unconscious clothed in whatever
imagery or ideas we can accept or allow, as do dreams. It can also be
evoked by using such images in a compensatory way.
See: biological dream theory; computers
and dreams; self-regulation dreams and fantasy;
movements during sleep; science sleep and
dreams; sleep walking.

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