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This feature
appeared in Here's Health in the '70's. While dated it still has
some useful information. The personal information is also dated.
See updated information.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR Tony Crisp. aged 35, a convert to the healthy
way of life from his early teens, is deeply interested in yoga and
balanced nutrition. He is a well-known and accomplished author and
has written a number of books including Yoga
and Relaxation, Yoga and
Childbirth, and Do You
Dream? He teaches "Yoga and Relaxation" in
further education classes in North Devon and has taught at
Tyringham Naturopathic Clinic, Buckinghamshire. Together with his
wife Brenda, and their four children, he runs a small food reform
guest house in North Devon.
Dealing with a Breakdown
Half the battle of dealing with a breakdown is won by
understanding what may have caused the situation
It is difficult, especially if you work or live in a large town,
to avoid some degree of this stress illness. I have, myself, twice
experienced t h e depression and physical exhaustion of this
civilised sickness. It creeps up on you gradually, unseen only
because you ignore the warning signs. Then, one day, or one week,
a sudden crisis may explode into your conscious life, that has
been bubbling away under the surface for ages.
Suddenly you cannot face going to work, or meeting people, or
leaving the house. All your hopes, plans, activities,
achievements, turn sour and appear empty, meaningless and even
sickening. Sometimes it occurs that for a trivial reason you
explode emotionally. or even become violent.
With others there is a tremendous and almost violent withdrawal
into themselves.
Really, the term "nervous breakdown" covers many
different symptoms that may have as many different causes. What we
really mean is that suddenly we are unable to cope with life.
Events, people. emotions, duties, responsibility, ideals, become
too much for us, and we feel as if life is a cat, and we are the
mouse it is playing with.
As I have already said, most of us at some time suffer nervous
breakdown, if only in a minor degree. Excessive tiredness,
withdrawal, or great irritability are some of the symptoms. If
these symptoms are progressively developing, or you suffer
frequent nightmares, unaccountable fears, and feelings of being of
no value, and working fruitlessly, it is best to stop for a while
and take stock.
Understanding What is Happening
Half the battle of dealing with yourself if you experience a
breakdown, is won by understanding what may have caused the
situation. Or possibly "cause" is the wrong word, maybe "function"
or "mechanism" are better. For even if you know the
cause, unless you have an idea of what is going on inside you,
physically and mentally, you still might not be able to cope with
things.
For instance, R. D. Laing gives the example of Jesse Watkins.
Jesse had been a merchant seaman. He had changed his job. He was
working seven days a week, and was bitten on the hand by a dog.
Subsequently he went to hospital for stitches, where he was given
his first local anaesthetic.
All seemed well until Jesse returned home, when he noticed that
time seemed to be slowing up, and eventually going backwards. He
then began to "babble on". A doctor was called and he
was hospitalised for ten days, in a very confused state. It was a
firm conscious resolve on the part of Jesse not to allow himself
to stay in this inner confusion, that eventually produced a
healing change in his condition.
In my own case, both times I felt utterly exhausted physically.
This was accompanied by strong desires to withdraw from all
activities, to give up all my plans and work and efforts, family
and social, These feelings alarmed me because I thought I was
becoming hateful and cynical.
At that time I had taken a job with very regular hours whereas
previously, for many years, I had worked until late at night and
most weekends. So I would arrive home from work, eat, doze on the
settee, rouse myself about ten, and go to bed. I became alarmed
that this was the pattern of my life ahead, lacking any interest
in life and people. It was only when I began to acknowledge
certain things about myself that improvement began.
Recently a friend told me about her breakdown following
hepatitis. For many months she could not bring herself to leave
her house. She felt threatened and exposed to unseen dangers if
she went out. Fear, like a barrier, prevented her from living a
normal life. So real was this wall of fear that, if she walked
out, the pressure of it seemed to smother her and cause her
difficulty in breathing. The real turning point in her recovery
came when she changed her diet and found enough strength to make a
decision. She told me, "I decided I would walk right through
the fear and out the other side."
Personal Experiences
Here we have three different people's experiences of a similar
illness. As can be seen, it is only similar in its widest sense.
Nevertheless, if we examine these cases in more detail, possibly
general issues will arise that will be helpful to you if you are
in a similar predicament.
Jesse arrived at his breakdown through overwork and several
types of shock. The strain of a new job of being bitten-of
hospital treatment. It is very likely that the shocks would not
have produced such a dramatic illness if the scene had not already
been set by overwork.
My own condition was triggered by years of working seven days a
week, while that of my friend was due to illness. Some of the
causes may therefore be: overwork; shock, such as new situations;
loss of some-one dear; accidents or injury; illness or operation;
childbirth; and so on.
Sometimes though, these are triggers rather than causes. They
release a condition that either already exists through nutritional
debits, or psychological predisposition. A man who has a terror of
spiders may seem perfectly healthy, psychologically, until a
spider appears.
While, from the nutritional standpoint, it has been proved by
the use of human volunteers that the absence of just niacin
(vitamin B6) in the daily diet over a short period of time can
cause major psychological breakdown. In severe cases this ends in
complete withdrawal and eventually death. As shock, stress,
overwork and illness produce enormous demands on the body's
resources and nutritional intake, vitamin and mineral debits can
be either the cause, or contributory
factors in a breakdown. This is especially so in regard to the B
vitamins and such minerals as calcium, magnesium, iron and sodium.
The mechanics or function of breakdown now begin to be
understandable, but obviously there is still a great deal more to
the situation. Some cases will be cured by adequate nutrition
alone, while others are due to psychological tangles and, while
improved by nutritional treatment, will not be cured by it.
Anxiety Laid Bare
What has often happened in these cases is that fears have been
uncovered by illness, shock or stress. It is difficult to explain
this except by analogy. If a sea serpent is thrashing about at the
bottom of the sea, it in no way endangers the sailors floating
above it. If something evaporates the water however, exposing the
serpent, there is every chance that boats may be endangered.
Similarly, all of us have fears, problems, hates and passions so
deep down in us we may know little or nothing about them-unless
they are uncovered. Illness, shock and stress, remove the
protective layers of our being, exposing our inadequacies. Drugs
such as LSD do the same thing, thus the danger for those
unprepared to face their own psychological problems. Most people
who have lived a full life will realise for themselves that
circumstances often reveal previously unknown fears.
If we are trying to help ourselves, a difficulty exists here in
judging our own situation. Everybody has unconscious fears. The
difficulty lies in judging whether our breakdown is due to more
than average inner problems pushing to the surface; or if stress
has removed the buffer condition of health, revealing normal
fears.
As a very basic guide, if it is the B vitamins you lack, this
will usually show as a heavily coated tongue, which may also be
creviced and scalloped at the front tip. As the B vitamins and
protein play an enormous part m digestion, there is usually poor
digestive ability, flatulence, and sometimes acidity. This is a
vicious circle unless broken, in that the impaired digestion
cannot supply the sick body with the nutrients vitally needed.
Enormous amounts of the B vitamins, especially niacin, with
adequate protein such as brewers' yeast powder, often perform
wonders. Sufficient A, C, D and E vitamins should be taken, as
indicated by one's health, along with kelp and bonemeal tablets.
Sleeplessness, muscle cramps, hot flushes and depression
particularly indicate these. The very fact of our nervous
breakdown points to the greater need for us to look to the basics
of our physical health.
There is also a great deal more we can learn of practical value
about the mental emotional side of the problem. The trouble here
is that some helpful instinctive drives are usually mixed up with
a lot of negative emotions. In my own experience, it was only
gradually that I learnt to sort them out and apply the one and
deal with the other.
For instance, the instinctive urge to withdraw and sleep and be
quiet is usually well worth following. The fact that the instinct
is usually accompanied by the fear of failure, feelings of
cynicism, depression and irritability, may make the doctor and us
lump them all together as things to be avoided. This is not so.
Because the protective layers of our being have been eroded,
revealing our tormented emotions, it also puts us much nearer to
our helpful instincts, which, like our fears, are usually covered
up.
I, personally, feared that if I gave way to my desire for
withdrawal it would never end. I feared that it would be a
permanent thing, and I would never wish to go out again, or be
active in plans for creative projects. I had to learn to
disentangle the emotions and fears of failure from the instinct to
rest and be still for a while. I had to learn to trust the
instinct.
Recuperation
Looking back of course, I can see it was plain common sense, but
this does not seem so at the time, and the need for rest is not
acknowledged. But these instinctive urges, if followed, gradually
lead to health, and the urge to communicate, to get out, then
emerges again naturally, quite by itself. Many people attempt to
fight the withdrawal urges, and force themselves to be bright and
communicative.
I must admit that you have to be careful not to become enmeshed
in the emotions that arise with the desire to withdraw, but this
is quite different. It is the difference between saying to
ourselves, I want to withdraw because I am a failure, no
good, and nobody likes me," and "I want to withdraw
because physically and emotionally I have overdone things and must
rest. My feelings of failure and depression are like the physical
symptoms of tiredness. These symptoms of body and mind will
gradually disappear as things right themselves."
With one attitude we say "I" am a failure, "I"
am depressed, and are enmeshed in our emotions; in the other
attitude we are saying "Because of my condition I am experiencing
depression and feelings of failure." A person who has a
cold in the head feels fairly certain that in a few days it will
disappear. Yet people who suffer sudden depression often feel
their whole life has crumbled, whereas it is just as much of a
foreign condition as the cold. If you can see it as such, then
sometimes one of the best ways of dealing with such fears is to
walk right up to them, like my friend did, and out the other side.
Jung, the psychiatrist, also advised some of his patients who
felt they were drowning in fear that, if they had the courage, the
best way out was to dive down into the very terror they were
struggling to avoid.
Exactly what does that mean? To repeat-see the depression or
fear not as something you are, but as something you are
experiencing, as with a cold. When we have a cold, if we are wise,
we know that the healing forces of our body are trying to rid us
of the irritation. Therefore we try to help the natural
recuperative powers by resting, keeping warm, not eating too much,
but making sure we take those things the body needs in its fight
against infection, such as vitamins C and A.
Similarly, healing forces are at work during a breakdown, but
often we literally fight against them and will not let the
sickness come to the surface because we are terrified of it. For
instance, a cold may produce in our body's healing activity a
higher temperature, sore throat, and tiredness. Despite this we do
not attempt to fight these symptoms by taking icy baths, fighting
tiredness by walking miles, etc. These symptoms are only signs of
our body throwing off the cold. Yet, during a breakdown, most
people fight tooth and nail against the healing activity, when the
mind, plugged up from having years of negative, self grasping,
ambitious, commercial and selfish emotions and desires crammed
into it, attempts to throw them out. Fearing that we are going
mad, we are terrified of allowing ourselves to experience these
fears, insecurities and passions, attempting to push them all
back. This is just as strange as forcing all the mucus back up our
nose instead of blowing it, but we do it.
Therefore, to sum up, first make sure the basics of your
physical needs are met in regard to diet, rest and exercise. Be
ready to listen to the voice of your instincts. This may, for a
time, lead to withdrawal. But it may also point out that you have
been living out of harmony with your physical and emotional needs,
and may require you to change your ways.
Learn to see your emotions as much as possible as something you
are experiencing, rather than as yourself. And if you can do this,
then let the hateful, tearful, awful feelings come up and out. Be
willing to experience them rather than attempt to push them back.

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